guys

guys there's a decapitated deer head on the balcony and i don't know why



WHY IS IT THERE



_{seriously i couldn't make this shit up if i tried IT'S RIGHT THERE}
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Bumping depressing journal off front page. Got some stuff done, made myself a schedule, gonna get through this. Barfing or not. Harrumph.


So for like the last three weeks -at least- I've been having dreams every night. Every. Night. Sometimes it's multiple dreams per night. Last night I had one involving baby chickens and stealing large gems. Another one involving alien UFOs, failed abductions, mysterious disappearances, tornados, SO MANY TORNADOS, RVs, and being chased by "aliens" that looked kinda like they were wearing those cheapo inflatable plasticy costume...things. Some of them also looked like they could have come out of Where the Wild Things Are. Oh, and I am a valiant person that would not risk the lives of innocents to save my ass and keep on hiding and would bravely step out and face my pursuers. Lol nah not in real life, I'm a pussy.


If I wasn't always so horribly rushed in the mornings, I would so be making a dream diary of all this shit. It's getting kind of disturbing, really.

Awesome. Made it pretty far into the semester before getting a fucked up stomach again. As I always do. Just feeling really depressed atm...like everything's hopeless, since no matter how hard I try I still get sick in the end and lose everything I've been fighting for.

Haven't been to most of my classes in at least a week since I've been feeling so awful every morning. Last week just felt shitty, today I actually vomited finally. Which normally will let me at least feel better, but then I ended up lying in bed for two more hours feeling worse and worse.

Oh, and midterms start back up in two days. At 8AM.

It's nice not having a million things pressing down on you at once and smothering you to the point that you can't even exhale, but merely cry. :>

I swear to god, I had pretty much everything happening in school all at the same time for like a week and a half there. Living hell. It's still not sorted out, but the worst of it is gone and I actually feel like I can breathe again. Fwuhhhh.

Yes the vast majority of the OH GOD I'M GOING TO DIE was that fucking pika paper. I don't care how adorable they look, I think I can honestly watch them go extinct without batting an eye now thanks to this stupid class. >8C



But what does this mean for YOU PEOPLE?

UBOAS

SO MANY UBOAS


I had like three people email me in the space of like two days asking if I still had commissions running. XD But now I have time for them! Yay! I've got like...three bodies cut out, one face cut and pinned to a backing, and I'm about to go sit down and sew it up and trim it and all that good stuff. :> And two of those aforementioned people didn't get back to me with payment, so if I finish these and they still haven't paid, other people can step in line and get uberfast guaranteed Uboas mailed to them~


I should really make a Halloween outfit for Lu. Even if she is just gonna be in her matching wa-loli outfit with me when we go trick or treating.

Snaggin' fre wifi in the University Center while I wait for my mammalogy groupmates to show up so we can peer review each other's term papers~ ugh this semester is killing me. If we get done with this quickly though, it means I can spend all night sewin' up Uboas, hooray!


But I just wanted to hop on to say OH MY GOD I RABU YOU ARR, EBELYONE ヽ(´▽`ヽ )

i just got my hundredth watcher ;A;

you're all so awesommmmeeeee ヾ(￣∇￣=ﾉ☆




Just nice to have little happy things mixed in amongst all the suck in my life at the moment. I've been so stressed that I'm literally going insane. I've had a really vivid dream every night for the last few weeks, despite normally only have a few dreams a YEAR that I remember after waking up. (And last night sucked. When I wasn't dreaming about doing research on pikas because UGH I CAN'T ESCAPE THIS TERM PAPER EVEN IN MY SLEEP I dreamed that somebody got a hold of Lu and scratched her up really really really badly ;_; Like, deep gashes in her back and fun shit like that. Sob.) Oh and I watched a couple scary video series on Youtube like a WEEK ago that thanks to my stress level still have me scared shitless and last night I almost had a heart attack when I swear to god there was something behind me in the bathroom reaching out for me. What the fuck I need to relax aaaahhhhhhh.

So thanks you guys ;A; I rabu you aaahhhhhh ;A;